Today, I sit in my favorite spot on top of my favorite waterfall. The water level is less than it was only a few weeks ago when I had such an amazingly fun time. I am also aware that next month there will possibly be no refreshing water at all cascading over these rocks. It is a challenge to enjoy the deliciousness of this moment and to accept what is true at this time, in this place. The sun, the breeze, the birds and the cool water all provide a banquet for my heart and soul.
I went for an annual exam at the doctor. I like to hear everything is ok and working as it should. Only, not this time. Hmm… what’s this lump. Of course it is a lump, why did I not notice it myself? Which led to another appointment, another test and then yet another. And the expectation of more to come. Words we really do not want to hear from someone in a white coat. Not what I had in mind for my summer plans. I can take this moment to stay here, accept what is truth and not fight it, yet not make it more than it is. I know I am stronger than I feel.
I can remember back so very long ago a situation with a tumor which grew to be as large as my unborn baby. The fear and struggle from that time tries to fill my heart and soul. I have to remind myself, “This is now, not then.” I am in such a different place. Of course, I can remember the good lessons from that time- love myself, love others, don’t sweat the small stuff , keep a sense of humor and stay in the moment- don’t get ahead of yourself. I just have to look at my amazing 6′ 5 son to remind me of the miracle of that time.
So, here I am in this moment. I am free to choose courage over fear. Acceptance over striving. Peace and grace in this moment. I can enjoy and celebrate all the love and support from family and friends. Decisions will need to come. Summer plans and goals will adjust and change. Tomorrow, I will deal with what comes my way in the strength of that moment and the next and the next. I will gratefully return to my waterfall perch in times when I need to refresh, renew and remind myself to accept and thrive in this moment. There may be an abundance of water or none at all, but still I can choose to embrace this time. Kind of like my life at this moment.
How can you embrace this moment for yourself?